.time of my life.

hey all!
lama aku menyepi dan skarang aku kembali.
seperti yang dulu bukan?
been there, done that! haha!

aku cuma ingin mengucap terima kasih kepada "silent reader" here at my blog and this one guy send me a message through an online profile website and here what he said,

message 1.
hi!
How are you adik Wan.
there are people who would disagree with you stand on how you look at life. But then again, it is ALRIGHT to AGREE to DISAGREE. Salute man, for being up front and living your life to the fullest. Carpe Diem!

After UITM, AUSTRALI, New Zealand or The States?

Cheers,
Invicibly Ryan. Tongue. I look up to people like you. May each day I become bolder like you. :)

message 2.
Adik Wan, I still try to balance to my personal and public life. A feat not easy to do. I did reach my lowest point life and that was not easy to come out of it. You are a damn FEISTY FIGHTER. ( i know and i think you also know that our family and friends(maybe some and not all) were and are there for us. And thanks to The Highest Being up there to be our guide whom we always so naughty and go astray. [ i have made a conclusion that none in this world is perfect. our family is the first one who can accept our imperfection UNCONDITIONALLY] chewah. abang macam berhujah aja di sini.

I know I have lots more to learn from this life. For me, I still bump into the hard walls at my age. but when i read your blog you somehow lift my SEMANGAT up. To live life to the fullest. For that, I ADMIRE you for being who you are.

I did choose my path in life a different course. I do think that this is the best for now. Yest again, I hope the path is clear at the end of the tunnel. Big Smile.

Dear ryan!
first of all im so glad that what i've wrote here do lift your SEMANGAT and about being fiesty fighter i think we all are. we have to do what is right for our own self and yes we make mistakes and that is how life is. we learn from our mistakes and at the end of the day, those mistakes is what our self had become today.

to me, my self is precious and i will never ever let anyone take advantage of it and no one can ever stop me from being me. i mean who else gonna stand up for ourselves if it not you yourself? i just dont give a damn what people gonna say about me because those people is the one who's living in denial! to them everyone is and should be perfect but no. no one is because in life, we made mistakes and one day, the mistakes will be open our heart accept that life should not be this way but it should be that way. or we do realize that what we're doing is a mistake but we all need time to make it better. it is just the matter of time.

my point is, just let people accept you for who you're that they're loving you but you're trapped in your mind and soul crying for not able to be your self. other people wont hurt. but you will.

and to all and everyone who've been reading my blog thank you so much! as i said this is the story of my life. its my experience with my family, friends and love. This is it. so much ups as well as down. i am what i am. the past thought me to be a better person today. stand up for your self because no one else will.

xoxo
POPSTAR/Dik Wan/ Awan / Wan

Labels: aku, alahai dunia
Till Then XOXO.. P O P S T A R at 1:31 AM | 0 xoxo

malam makin sunyi.
pagi akan siang.
sunyi.
rindu.
marah.
kecewa.
sakit hati.
sayang.
mungkin.
aku sendiri tidak pasti.
hati aku sakit.
aku tinggi suara malam ni.
sebab dia tak pernah paham.
dia tak pernah berubah.

*diam*

Labels: aku, dari hati untuk hati
Till Then XOXO.. P O P S T A R at 2:56 AM | 0 xoxo

niat hati nak menulis.
tapi sampai di skrin ini.
kosong.
mungkin jiwa aku kosong sekarang.
ada sesuatu yang meragut senyum aku.
itu sahaja.
sekian.

Labels: a daily life
Till Then XOXO.. P O P S T A R at 12:21 AM | 0 xoxo

diam.
diam.
diam.
sampai bila?

aku penat.
membiar dan terus diam.
biar aku dipijak di salahkan.
aku cuma berkawan.
aku diam menjaga hati orang.
aku diam kerana kawan.
aku biar aku di herdik biar di cerca.
aku di salah perkara yang bukan aku.
tapi sampai bila?
aku penat di pijak kepala.
semakin aku diam.
semakin hati aku terbiar matil.

aku melawan.

hidup ni macam itu macam ini.
manusia tak semua boleh bersuara.
yang bersuara ada kemungkinan hilang itu ini.
aku juga sama.
aku bersuara.
aku hilang kawan.

biar.
biar.
biar.

hati aku terbiar mati.
sampai masa aku membela diri.
mereka fikir mereka terlalu kuat.
kerana itu mereka pijak kepala kamu.
tapi mereka silap.

sekarang aku melawan.
biar aku hilang itu ini.
biar aku hilang kawan.
tapi yang penting aku benar.
aku biar mereka tahu.
yang salah itu bukan aku.
yang patut di herdik cerca bukan aku.
tapi diri mereka yang sial itu.

sekarang biar aku dengan cara aku.
aku penat menjaga hati orang sedang hati aku terbiar mati.

p/s- sampai bila kita nak biar orang terus pijak kepala kita? aku ada maruah kau pun sama. tapi sebelum kau nak salahkan orang lain kau tengok diri kau dulu. kalau diri kau sememangnya salah. mati lah kau. jangan seperti dungu meletakan salah diri sendiri pada orang lain. tidak kan kau seperti dungu dan pentingkan diri sendiri. biar aku hilang kawan. siapa lagi yang dapat membela benar aku kalau kawan sendiri menangkan yang salah? ya. aku. biar aku bela diri aku. sekian.

bosan kan? mungkin ada antara kamu yang bosan dengar pekara ni dari aku. well. now its time for me to fight back. its just me now.

Labels: aku, dari hati untuk hati, puisi
Till Then XOXO.. P O P S T A R at 12:14 AM | 0 xoxo

kenapa masa terlalu cepat dari kecil aku hingga ke besar aku sekarang.
ramai yang telah pergi meninggalkan.
kelmarin dulu cukuplah empat bulan nanti datang juga cukuplah empat bulan.
mereka tinggalkan aku.

tuhan.

mereka hak kamu dan telah pun mereka kembali kepada kamu.

tuhan.

tempat kan mereka di sisi kamu.
kalau aku punya masa aku ingin lagi 10 saat bersama mereka.
untuk aku cakap tok, tok mak, wan sayang sangat pada kamu.

ya.
aku sangat merindui mereka.

sangat.
sampai bila.
bukan aku menidakan takdir tuhan.
cuma hati kecil terkadang rindu.
rindu untuk bersama mereka yang sudah tidak lagi ada.

Labels: dari hati untuk hati
Till Then XOXO.. P O P S T A R at 1:32 AM | 0 xoxo

kembali.
jam sekarang tujuk nombor tiga.
dingin menandakan sekarang pagi.
malayu minta ditutup.
kamu tunggu.
sekarang aku akan kembali.

Labels: nota pendek.
Till Then XOXO.. P O P S T A R at 3:19 AM | 0 xoxo

To all my readers,
im gonna make this a quickie update.
i would like to wish you guys
SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN.

Labels: best wishes
Till Then XOXO.. P O P S T A R at 3:23 AM | 0 xoxo